Really......I thought the Lord doesn't give you more then you can handle. I already felt with a full time job, a 5 yr old, 1 yr old, church calling, pregnancy that this was all I could handle. Apparently no. Avery did pretty good today, even helping Saydee make her birthday cake. I wasn't there, but the pictures showed her so happy. Her stomach hurt today, but eventually the medicine took affect. Tonight, she was so mad especially at me. She says some hurtful things and again I try to remember what the nurses say about kids being on steroids. Thanks Greta, for your understanding & encouraging words. She first hand, watched her father battle cancer. Her abdominal pain got so bad tonight & the medicine wasn't helping. It has been a rough night & I honestly feel like I can't do this & I can't handle watching her be in pain anymore. Some of this pain isn't new, she has been having pain for weeks. I keep hoping somehow this will go aways & this isn't real. That she can be a normal 5 yr old & not be experiencing pain off & on, not be taking all these drugs & that she can want to play like normal 5 yr old want to play. I called for back up & my dad and brother came gave her a priesthood blessing. Ironically my last lesson I gave in Young Women's was on the blessings of the Priesthood. Maybe I needed a big reminder of these blessings!